She wasn’t what you would call beautiful.
She was just a red-haired girl with a lot of sock. She stood behind
the screen door on the front porch, frowning at me.
"I’m Jack Ruxton " I said. "From
Ruxton’s TV. Sorry I’m late."
"That’s all right."
She was maybe seventeen or eighteen. The porch
light was on. It was about eight o’clock on a Monday night.
Looking past her, I could see through a long, broad living room,
expensively furnished, and on into a brightly lighted bedroom.
A man with iron-gray hair lay on a hospital bed under a sheet,
with his toes sticking straight up. His head was flung back as
if he were in a cramp. There was a lot of tricky-looking paraphernalia,
rubber hoses and tanks and stuff, beside the bed. A fluorescent
bedlight glared across his face. It was eerie.
"Well," I said. "TV on the blink?"
"No. That’s not what I called you
for, Mr. Ruxton."
She caught on that it was uncomfortable with
the screen door between us, gave it a shove with her knee. I backed
away on the porch. She stepped out and closed the door.
"I’m Shirley Angela," she said.
I nodded. She had on a red knitted thing, made
of one piece. It was shorts and a top, without sleeves. The top
was what I think they call a boat-neck, tight up against her throat.
The whole thing was very tight on her. Her face seemed almost
childlike, but she was no child.
She said, "Let’s go out back and talk."
"Okay."
"He’s sleeping. He only sleeps a few
minutes. It might wake him if we went in now."
"Okay."
She brushed past me and walked down the sloping
cement ramp built from the top of the porch to the front walk.
There were no steps. The ramp was for wheelchair cases. I followed
her.
The hair was shoulder length, and more auburn,
close up. Her waist was extremely narrow. She walked on the balls
of her feet, throwing her hips out in back; it was there to be
looked at, and she must have known it.
"Out here, Mr. Ruxton."
I grunted, and we came around the side of the
house on a path of stepping stones. She could really do things
on stepping stones. She flipped a switch on a pine tree, and floodlights
came on out in the yard. We walked along that way, playing Indian,
to where the path ended.
She paused, but didn’t turn, and said,
"There are just the two of us living here. I have to take
care of everything." Then she moved off again.
I didn’t say anything.
The lot was a big one, maybe two hundred by three
hundred. It was wooded with Australian pine, a couple of big old
water oaks, and royal palms. You could see soft lights in a house
beyond a hedge next door. There was a sea wall down there by the
Gulf, and the moon and floodlights gleamed on the water. Three
weathered lawn chairs stood around a rusting steel-topped table
that had once been white.
"We can sit out here,"
"Okay."
We moved the chairs away from the table and sat.
I didn’t know what we were waiting for, but neither of us
said anything for a minute or two. You knew she was young, yet
there was something contained about her. She was almost serene.
Her skin was pale, almost pure white. Her face was smooth and
oval, but with high cheekbones under the velvety skin. Looking
at her, you knew it would be something to lay your hands on that
soft white skin; very smooth, like a breast, all over.
The thought did occur to me: What the hell is
she doing here alone with that old guy in the bed? And somehow
I knew it wasn’t any money problem. That’s all I thought,
though. I decided to let her carry the ball, and quit thinking
how good she looked. Grace had looked good, too, and now she had
me half nuts, the way she was acting. We had had it good and then
lost it, and now she wouldn’t let me alone and I couldn’t
shake her. It made me half sick every time I thought of Grace.
I didn’t know what the hell to do about her.
"Florida’s sure nice, nights like
this," I said. "That’s a fine breeze. Smell the
salt?"
"Mr. Ruxton. It’s really going to
entail a lot of work—what I want done."
Her voice was much like her face. It seemed kind
of flat and childish at first, until the overtones hit you.
She leaned forward and spoke earnestly.
"We have only one television set, a small
one. One of these cheap seventeen-inch portable models. It’s
just no darned good, what with those dog ears they use."
"Rabbit ears," I said. "If the
set’s any good, you should have decent reception. Of course,
out here on the beaches, you might have some interference. I’ll
check into that."
"Yes. But what we want are two large sets.
Color. One for the living room, and then I want one suspended
over his bed, so he can watch it in bed, you see?"
"Hm-m-mmm."
"He’s able to get up, of course, when
he feels well. But mostly he’s in bed, lately. It would
be best to hang it right over his head. So he could see it easily."
She leaned back and folded her hands in her lap.
"We’d pay cash, of course," she
said. "You don’t have to worry about that."
"Wasn’t worrying."
She smiled briefly.
"Think I can handle everything you want,
Miss Angela."
"And, also—a good antenna."
"Okay."
"That’s not all. I want one of these
intercom businesses set up, too. Between all of the rooms. So
he can call me whenever he needs me. Sometimes he needs me in
a hurry. His voice isn’t too strong."
"We can take care of that."
"I have no idea which brand is best. I used
to read these consumers’ reports, but I don’t keep
up anymore. Naturally, Victor—Mr. Spondell, that is—doesn’t
care, so long as everything works perfectly. He’s particular
about buying the very best, though."
"I understand."
She was a puzzler. I knew she was in her teens,
yet she had that direct and deadly poise of a woman beyond her
years.
I was figuring Miss Shirley Angela was going
to help my business in her own small way. This looked like a good
deal. You’ve got to whittle every stick you get your hands
on, if you expect to be big. Your business has to be the biggest
and the best, if you expect it to pay off. That’s how it
was going to be with me. There was the new annex, and two new
trucks, and two new men. I was plenty in debt. But if you’re
smart enough to find all the angles and ride them down, you won’t
drown. In the beginning, you’ve got to scramble, and you’ve
got to ride those angles hard, every damned one of them. You don’t
let any of them throw you, not even the measliest, because every
buck adds up. Either that, or you make it big and fast some way,
and quit cold. I had learned the hard way, misfiring across a
lot of lousy years, that I would have to slug for it—slug
everybody in sight. So I was glad I’d come out here myself,
instead of sending one of the men from the shop. It had been mostly
by chance, and because Grace was hanging around again outside
the store.
I decided to hold off the pitch till after we
were inside the house. From the way it looked, the guy in there
wouldn’t be any hindrance.
Things seemed a little strained, though, and
I wasn’t sure why. I kept wondering what her relationship
was to the guy in there.
"We can go in now," she said. "He’ll
be awake."
We walked back the way we had come and went into
the house. As we entered the living room she said, "I’ll
let you decide the best place for everything, Mr. Ruxton. You’ll
know best, I’m sure."
We left his room until last. She was avoiding
it, and trying every way she knew to make it look as if she wasn’t
avoiding it. I wanted to get a good look at him, and that room.
Her acting the way she did only made it worse. The room was like
a magnet.
It was a fairly large house: large living room,
three bedrooms, dinette, kitchen, three bathrooms, and a sprawling
glassed-in area they call a Florida room down here. It was so
quiet you could hear him clear his throat, or change position
on the bed.
I couldn’t keep my eyes off her legs and
she knew it. We were in the kitchen when she excused herself and
came back in a minute buttoning up a yellow housecoat.
"What do you think, Mr. Ruxton?"
"Well, there’ll be a few minor difficulties
in the wiring, but we’ll iron them out. Maybe I’d
better have a look in there, now."
She turned quickly away. "All right."
We went into his bedroom.
"Victor?"
He opened his eyes and stared at me.
"Victor, this is Mr. Ruxton. He’s
come to put in the TV sets and everything. Like we talked about.
He wants to check your room."
He blinked, just once, staring at me. Those blue
eyes were really sharp. Somehow they reminded me of an eagle’s
I’d seen in a Belgian zoo. It was as if he stared at the
wall right through your head.
"Good," he said. "That’s
good."
His voice wasn’t strong. He had finely
drawn features, a long nose, and heavy brows knotted with snarled
gray hair. There was a quality of stubborn arrogance in his glance,
of tired determination. The hair on his head was iron-gray, and
like barbed wire. He looked as if he were grinning, but it was
only the shape of his mouth when relaxed. He wore light gray pajamas.
The sheet was neatly drawn and folded across his chest, his hands
folded on the sheet. He was a shell, but looked as if he’d
once been as strong as an ox.
The sound of his normal breathing was bad. Something
like a horse with an advanced case of the heaves.
"Ruxton, eh?" he said, breathing like
wind in an October com field. "The only Ruxton I believe
I ever had the pleasure of becoming acquainted with was an unmitigated
ass and a dirty son of a bitch. You any relation to him?"
I watched the hands shake; big, once-powerful
hands, folded on the sheet.
"Probably," I said.
Some gut-wrung breathless sounds burst past his
lips. He was laughing. I knew then I wasn’t going to make
any pitch to her for anything. I would do my job and get out of
here. I didn’t like the guy.
"Victor," she said, moving quickly
to the side of the bed. "Please, take it easy, will you?"
"Oh, Christ," he said. He spoke with
soft pain. She glanced at me, her eyes up-flung in a show of resignation,
and began straightening his pillows.
There were oxygen tanks beside the bed, standing
upright in a nickel-steel rack with wheels and handles. A long
black coil-rubber hose and mask dangled over one side of the gleaming
handles like an eyeless python with its mouth open.
The room was antiseptically clean, neat and white.
Not even a magazine or a chair. Just the hospital-type bed and
the oxygen tanks. To the left a white-curtained window opened
on the side of the house, over the path that led out back. Another
window was at the head of the bed. Hanging on a bedpost by a black
ribbon was a small, filigreed silver bell; the kind that used
to sit on the back of the buffet at your grandmother’s house
in the long ago of your early childhood.
I stared at the ceiling over the bed, trying
to make it look as if I were doing my job. You think about hanging
TV sets on the ceiling, only you just don’t do it.
"I’ll have to check the attic rafters,"
I said.
"All right," she said.
I looked at him again. He didn’t seem too
well.
I went over to the bedroom door, and she came
along, and we stepped into the living room. The housecoat was
coming unbuttoned. She watched my eyes.
"He’s very bad off," she said.
"How do I get into the attic? You have a
flashlight?"
"Yes—"
The sound reached me faintly from the bedroom.
A butterfly brushed a broken wing against the silver bell.
"Shir-LEY!"
It was Death croaking.
She gave me a quick look and hurried back into
the bedroom. I watched her. He writhed on the bed, his mouth open,
hands clenching the sheets. He was trying to breathe.
"Would you please help me?" she said.
I went in there.
"Turn that handle wide open. Yes, that’s
it."
She leaned on him, holding one arm down, and
mashed the mask over his nose and mouth and I turned it on. It
was life pumping through the rubber hose. I looked away and tried
to think of something else so I wouldn’t hear him.
In a minute or two she said, "You can turn
it off now."
I turned it off. She came around and draped the
black rubber hose over the handle. He lay there with his eyes
closed. Sweat had formed in splotches on his face and hands.
"Thanks, baby," he said. He didn’t
open his eyes.
She made a soft purring sound in her throat,
and moved to the other side of the bed, straightening the sheet.
I watched her and she looked up at me. I caught the expression
on her face. It told me a lot.
We watched each other across the bed. She knew
I’d seen what she was thinking. It was as if the bed were
suddenly empty. He just wasn’t there.
She jerked her gaze away and walked out into
the living room. I followed, seeing his feet sticking straight
up under the sheet, from the corner of my eye. I’d once
done apprentice work for an undertaker and had seen a lot of feet
like that.
"Sorry you had to see him that way,"
she said.
"Forget it. Glad to help. Where’s
that flashlight?"
She went to the kitchen and returned with a five-cell
job. I stood on a chair and swung up into the attic through the
closet in her bedroom. I checked the rafters. I couldn’t
get him out of my head. He was ]ust like a corpse, only he still
breathed and he was still king.
I came back down.
"Sure," I said, handing her the flashlight.
"It won’t be too difficult, fastening a TV set to the
ceiling."
"I suppose you’re still concerned
about what happened, aren’t you, Mr. Ruxton. I shouldn’t’ve
asked you to help. I know how disturbing something like that can
be, seeing it for the first time. I just forgot, I’m so
used to it." \
I thought, Honey, you’ll never be used
to that.
She must have seen something in my eyes. She
spoke quickly. "It’s a respiratory ailment. Very complicated.
It gets more complicated all the time." She stared toward
his room. "Degeneration," she said. "He’s
been to the finest specialists in the country. Luckily, he’s
very wealthy." She looked at me again. "It’s his
lungs, his throat, bronchial tubes—and now, his heart, too.
He’s—we, that is, have lived everywhere, but he likes
it here best."
"You’re his nurse, then."
"He’s my stepfather, Mr. Ruxton. But
I suppose you could say I was his nurse. I’ve been taking
care of him ever since he sold the business. He manufactured expensive
furniture. All kinds. Surely you’ve heard the name Spondell?
Very likely some of the television cabinets you sell were designed
by Victor."
His name might as well have been Xshdkgteydh,
for all I’d ever heard of him. I said, "Yeah. The name
does seem to ring a bell, at that." She didn’t speak,
so I said, "How old are you, anyway?"
She looked at me along her eyes. "Eighteen."
She paused. "He insisted I take care of him—like this."
"Shouldn’t he be in a hospital?"
She gave a little jerk with her head, and sighed.
"That’s just it. The doctors think so. And now Doctor
Miraglia claims it’s very important. Victor just tells him
’Bosh!’ and refuses to go."
"Who’s this Miraglia?"
"He’s Victor’s doctor now. Victor
won’t let anyone else come near him. He thinks Doctor Miraglia’s
the finest doctor in the world." She sighed again. "Everybody
thinks Victor should be in the hospital."
"Who’s everybody?"
"I mean, before we came here."
"What do you think?"
She smiled. It didn’t mean a thing to me,
because she’d pushed the whole business much too far. You
get to meet a lot of people, and you know how they react when
you first meet them. There was only one reason why she’d
tell me all this. Maybe two reasons, but I figured I was crazy,
thinking the other one. She said, "Let’s discuss something
else. This must be tiresome to you."
"No relatives?"
"What?"
"Him. Hasn’t he any family of his
own? I mean, other than you?"
She turned and moved to a broad cocktail table
beside a long, low pale blue couch. She laid the flashlight on
the table. "Nope," she said. "Nobody but me."
She turned and looked at me, smiling.
"Suppose I drop around tomorrow morning?"
I said. "I’ll bring some stuff along. We can decide
what you want. How’s that?"
"All right. That’s fine."
"If we started anything tonight, we’d
never get finished."
"I suppose you’re right."
We walked across the room. I stepped out onto
the front porch. I looked back at her through the screen.
"Good night, Miss Angela."
"Good night, Mr. Ruxton."
Copyright © 1958 by Gil Brewer.